the yesplus experience

jus back frm my final day of the yesplus course of the art of living...which ended with a bang... i loved it so much, new frnds n all. its an experience one must go thru... so guys who evers readin this, go n attend d yes plus course which is conducted in the main cities across india n trust me u ll come n thank me :-D
i wish i cud say more... but its unexplainable the jo i feel... especially yesday n today after i cam home frm the course, i was literally jumpin up n down... n my mom was like, wats wrong wid u? my ans was a hug ;)

wel, one lil story i wana tel is- once a man was thinking abt god n he was wondering y always gud things happen to everybody but him n y ppl dont help him n so on... he pondered abt it d whole day. dat night he gets a dream, its a jungle n thers a jackal whos hurt in d leg n s unable to run n wonders hw he is going to get food. a lion arrives on d scene n kills a deer, n eats its fil n leaves behind the rest, which our jackal enjoys. so d next day this guy decides to sit in one place n see if anybody comes n feeds him. the whole day goes by n ppl too.. he sleeps restlessly n thers a dream again and he is in front of god askin y it happened that way n god answers- my dear son, i made u the LION!!

bidar

got a day off for everyone at home, n lukin at places v cud go to n cum back in a day, v settled on bidar, karnataka. small town n dirty but with sites from the 14th century, v loved d trip. first v went to madrasa, which was a college in d olden days n taught persian n such stuff to students which includes those from abroad too... n we went there yesday (14th sep) n the start of d ramzan month n v wer surrounded by kids whose skool left them off early.. n they wanted a few pics ;)

then v wwent to d bidar fort which was surpisingly empty(the guards attribute it to the vinayak chaturthi the next day), with a fort wall covering 5.5km, it was a huge place, but very little of d inside was left over... this is d 14th century bahmanis kingdom v r talkin abt. thers a museum with hindu sculptures from the 12th century, succeded by the 14th century bahmani rulers muslim scipts. after a comfortable lunch in d fort area, man it was huge!( n v tuk lunch with us which was a gud thing cos d restaurants r nt very neat n all).

ya n in d fort in d pic im uploadin, ther r stones bigger than a football... n they weigh like 100kilos or so. the suitors for the royal bride were to carry them on their shoulders n the guy who suceeded in doing so for the maximum time wud win d bride..cool, na?

n the guide there was accompanying us as v went to the tomb of the greatest of those bahamani kings, n dat was huge too.. beside it wer other tombs too. n then a sikh guru
dwara-Guru Nanak Jhira Gurudwara. n then to a siva temple-papa nashini.

n then to a narasimha swami temple, which ended up my favouritest after the trip. here, u need to walk for like 10mins in chest deep water thru a narrow tunnel to were the lord is sculptured in rock n ges whose accompanying u? hundreds of bats overhead... gives u d creeps? it was pretty fun.

I maynt have a perfect life, but I wudnt change anythin

I maynt have a perfect life, but I wudnt change anythin

I sit forlorn as I watch the sky
I watch my breath n my thoughts.
Its said thoughts fly faster than light,
Yea, I agreed, faster than this heartbeat.

I watch the trees sway n the birds fly
Gushing air fliping the pages I write on
The rocks sleeping n the cows grazing
Human chattering disturbing the harmony of the surroundings.

I am silent as my past flies by.
Memories n remembrances n many a bitter row.
Thru ups n downs, I watched myself stride,
With unfailing faith n love for the divine.

Sometimes I put my neck out for those in need,
N at times left them with their hands out, calling.
Charitable at times n many a good deed
Selfish the other while n as wicked as could be.

I tried loving the people who for me cared,
But my pride n ego took over at times.
Small n simple things matter so much,
A simple smile, a simple word gave such joy.

I’ve lived as I liked , as I cared,
Ther wer things I shudnt have done.
N sum others which I very much should have.
But at the end of the day, I smile in contemplation
I’m happy n complete n dats all that ever matters.

hmm.. dunno wat to name this.. this is jus close to my heart

Today s goin to b different
n everyday whence
I'm lookin into myself again,
regainin the deep touch into inner communion.

nuthin matters or bothers me
nuthin at all...anymore
im filled with an ecstatic silence
a silence i had long lost.

A silence that fills my heart
with the purity of the divine
a silence in me dat sings n dances
that celbrates the very purpose of life,

A life whose purpose is celebration,
celebration of the silence, celebration of the divine!

life

Life

Life is very much like a game, be it the players
Or the viewers, everyone feels the same.

There are moments of success and victory,
When the heart leaps with unlimited joy.

Not left out are the tumbles and defeats,
When one feels literally far from happiness.

But its all in the game, one defeat lesser to go by.
Life goes on, Memories live on.

As the past jogs by in our minds,
The future holds bright lights for us to find.

As one goes through all this,
You kind of feel like just sitting quiet
Trying to say something to yourself.

Something that says that the game, the life is beautiful
As well as sad, exciting, enthralling and frustrating.

When you feel you're in the downs, You suddenly are on the top.
And when you feel you too high, you suddenly go down.

Life is wonderful; it all comes down to how you create it,
So create it well, Be in it,
Love every moment, Love life, Love yourself.

The smile

why, oh! why do i smile without a reason?
need there a reason for a smile to bloom?
it jumps, it dances, it turns n twists
around the corers of my lips
n whoa! thers a smile as big as any I've seen
that shines on my lips n twinkles in the eyes.
a smile from the inner self, a smile from the divine
a smile that unites my heart n soul as one..........

wel, smile... cos life is beautiful, even thou v do not always acknowledge the fact. as u can c, my poems r eithr very sad or very happy n dats cos dat is wen a poem flows out. its like, wen im all blue, i jus write a poem, anywhere... n anythin i can find to write it on, n then my sadness n glum disappear... im all smilin again. n wen im jumpin wid joy, its time fr a poem again. the beauty of poems is amzing.. they express more than mere words ever can. i may nt b a gud poet or anythin, but i dont care, i write cos i luv to... n i luv wat i write...

REFLECTIONS

This is one of my favourites...but nuthing beats the alone poem...neway here goes---------->

Refelctions

Thoughts fly faster than light
n it helps to pen them down
I've been feelin blue fr a couple of days
gloomy n sad as nvr b4

wondering wen i felt the happiest,
i go over th past-
by happy, do i mean a smile? a laugh?
or was it joy dat touched my heart

was it wen i was wid my friends,
crackin many a joke
life was full of comments,
on him, on her n our own

parties, bike rides n many a phone call
late night walks n late night talks
were all means of happiness
but, alas, only 4 moments did they last

true happiness, i realise i felt was-
one fine day, wen in an orphanage,
i was surrounded by kids who meant nuthin to me
but 2 whom i meant a lot.

that love n affection i was showered upon
never can i forget those moments.
they dint want ur money or gifts
all they asked was 4 love, only a little love...

We r born not widout a purpose
n wat better way 2 live than spread happiness n love
2 those who need it the most
cos dat is all that ever lasts...........

wel...its true... ever been wid kids in an orphanage? ever had kids affectionately callin u akka n climb all over u..lil ones, hardly a couple of yrs old ... u feel so glad wid them. u feel attached to them n nvr wana go away, as if thers a force dat holds all together n unites us, a force may be called- LOVE

whom shud v answer to?

Whom should we answer to?

Deep down, all that really matters Is
Thy self whom else should we answer to?

Blindfolding the world is an easy task,
But whom are we really cheating?

Our own mind and soul and heart?
Thy self ? whom else should we answer to?

Right and wrong, false and true
Are all worries of the world

But whom are we not true to?
Thy self ? whom else should we answer to?

What are we really doing?
Living in our own world of lies.

Hiding from one's own heart, but what finally matters is
Thy self - whom else should we answer to?

illusion

well, i thot somebody likes my poems after all... so jus addin them on...

Illusion

Am I in an illusion?
Where I'm bemused and in a state of confusion

Here's a person I fear a lot
But love and respect and hate him too.

A person whose influence over me is very high
Such that I'd do anything for him under the
sky.

Without a thought of it being evil or good,
Always with a bow, I heed him so.

He and only he, wid such an impressive power,
Never, oh! never have I seen this before.

What surprises me moresoever
Is the person being me and none whoever.

illusion

well, i thot somebody likes my poems after all... so jus addin them on...

Illusion

Am I in an illusion?
Where I'm bemused and in a state of confusion

Here's a person I fear a lot
But love and respect and hate him too.

A person whose influence over me is very high
Such that I'd do anything for him under the
sky.

Without a thought of it being evil or good,
Always with a bow, I heed him so.

He and only he, wid such an impressive power,
Never, oh! never have I seen this before.

What surprises me moresoever
Is the person being me and none whoever.

Few seconds frm - DeatH... 4hrs ago

i m lucky to b writing this, i mean am lucky to b still alive n am lucky to b in one piece wid jus a scratch or two... if u happened to pass by my mutiliated car lying in a ditch beside the road, u wud think the ppl in it must have been dead.. v wer racin frm lingampally to vikarabad to catch a train in an hour to go to mumbai n man, it was raining like mad.. n v wer nvr less than 110kmph... n 10 km n 10 mins frm d station, ther was this narrow bridge, n a bus cumin towards us.. i am nt sure wen my driveer saw dat d road was narrow n only one vehicle cud pass...two sharp cuts n a break..n v wer skiddin on d slippery road, flew off the road into the bushes, kept skiddin fr 15 metres n then it turned around...man, v wer lucky to have seat belts on... n suddenly outta no where, ppl poured in, n wer pushing the car arnd, n v got out shaky n checkin fr bruises... then a luk at d car n my god, i cudnt stop thankin god to b alive... but d split second in which v skid cos v wer at 120kmph as i said... in dat second, i can remeber things as if in a slow motion.. v wer goin thru the shrubs n i thot to myself, v r havin an accident n it luks like jus a roller coaster ride n n o pain... n i told myself to sit back n brace myself n wid one hand was holdin my sis back too cos i remembered her seat belt was loose...
wel, its ovr now.. n i vowed to myself to stop n help wenevr i see an accident cos i was thankfull to thos ppl who rushed to us... n believe me.. NUTHIN in life is worth the risk of ur life... n speed..i enjoyed the ride cos v wer literally flyin, but man, had v gone slower... "YA, n the seat belts n the bushes around saved us..
wen v frm startin frm lingampally,dad wasnt cumin wid us, n i was abt to get into the front passenger seat n then dad said drop me thr ekaod, n then again he dint cum, so apuduki, i was seated in the back(near the left door n sis n mom beside me... ya n the car turned ovr on my side...).. n i shudder to think dat in dat second i mit hav been in the front seat...cos u c the front passenger part of the car caved in so badly cos it hit some huge stone.. n i wudnt hav been here typin this even if i did survive the head injury.... ;) neways... v safe n i happy.. v had been postponing a tripp to shirdi, n now i dont understand how v planned to go to mumbai without goin ther... so , as soon as v can, v ll go visit shirdi... ya n wen u c omens, heed them... produna varalakshmi vratam ki devata ni sadutunapudu, venakalaki jaripinapudu, kinda padipoyindi n my sis said sth s bad s gonna happen.. n v wer to take the train frm lingampalli.. but wen v went ther, it turned out it dint stop ther anymore... adi.. ya n this forebodin was in my mind ki.. i usually hav a sai dollar in my neck which i love so much n jus this time, gav it to the jeweller to put it into a new chain... n it kept naggin in my mind dat i dint wanna go anywhere widout...call me superstistiously silly.... but lol, am happpy i m alive n am writin this jus to remind u guys......................> dat some things in life r jus not worth riskin ur life for... n wen u c an accident, even if u dont go n help, give a call to an ambulance plz.. if u save somebody, u (or ur dear ones) might b saved someday too...
thnx
sahitya

gone wid d wiind

its sposed to b a classic n dats y i lay my hands on it, pleased by d 1000 n odd pages cos dat wud mean passin my time now dat ders plenty. its a brilliant read, set in d american civil war.. n me dint like the deep details abt the war at sum places... but otherwise..its a buk of love n loss n courage... a nice one to read. u ll fal in love wid d ruthless scarlett...truly ruthless n brave n smart n insensitively selfish thing..n the rascal rhett buttler... who tries turnin over such a change jus fr his lil lovely daughter... the kind melanie...oh i cudnt help but cry wen she was dyin... the buk is written on a civilisation dat rebuilds itself after war.. n as scarlett is d main part... everything in her life wer slowly gone wid d wind! n hw she struggled to hold wat remained, pushing off d past n her present worries wid common sense n attendin to the matter at hand cos as she always said-'tomorrow is another day!' n oh i cud almost feel d war happening to me, i was jus hopin d war wud end n things get normal, but it ends n dats jus d beginning...thers so much loss, so much pain n struggle...after it... boy! i was literally in d story... beginnin wid d pleasent balls, the dancin...the laughter... it was as if i was surrounded by it. n den whoa! d war.... mast. n i jus saw d movie tooday... i always felt no movie cud do justice to a buk, the emotions, the fragnance n d delicateness a buk carries n slowly unfolds.. a movie cudnt do it... n wen i recently saw namesake, dat cemented my thot..but this movie!- gone wid d wind..n i was swept off my feet..probably d longest movie i had seen til now..nearly 3hr 48mins... its taken so beautifully... wow! n vivien leigh did absolute justice to her role as if she was born scarlett o' hara... her quick temper, her pride, her convincing lies, her demure luks n attractive smiles, her ruthless nature never to let go n always keep fightin.. a heart-touching tale of a struggle wid courage n love n die-hard spirit.

my love- its melody

wen i say its melody i was talkin abt this poem.. but i ges.. love is a melody too.. love... the word brings such positive energy, doesnt it? it reminds me of a wave of emotions.. happy.. pleasent. i say one must be in love jus fr d sake of it... its upliftin n fills d heart wid delight... it.. wel.. each to their own experience ;)

my love

i sit here in calm solitude
the gentle wind caressing my face
the soft raindrops hug me so
n i smile as i feel ur gaze

far you are, yet so near
i can feel ur very breath
the touch of ur lips on mine
n the warmth of ur embrace

the very thought of you
is enuf to make my day
oh! im so glad v met
i love u, i love ur every way

the way the top of ur nose crinkles
everytime u smile
the love i c in ur eyes
wen u luk deep into mine

the way u soothen my hair
wen its all askew
ur comforting hand which
never fails to find mine.

the way u patiently listen
to my tuneless songs,
n put up wid my
endless babbles n flaws.

u make me laugh crazy
wen im all down n blue,
that i dunno wat i wud've done
jus without u.

i know u in n out,
ur every luk,smile n touch.
i feel cumplete wid u
v r one 2gether, i'm urs n u mine.

lonely...

wel.. dunno y am feelin all paranoid... i jus feel i cant understand myself at times- my thoughts or my moods..or anything.. at times thou.. i think i understand others pretty wel, but wen it cums to me at times... i jus dont know.. ya, i know am makin no sense.. neways..heres a poem i adore ..dat i wrote fcorz ;) no i dint rite it now.. jus felt like readin it.. it kinda comforts me...

Alone

Here, alone, I stand by the sea,
Thinking, who's really there for me.

In moments of triumph,I'm surrounded by many,
But, in sadness, I just can't find any.

Sucess and riches, is this what all the
world wants?
Gold and money, how long do they last?

Alone we come into this world, alone we
depart.
Does it mean we should be alone, as long as
life lasts?

Lonely here I am, I wonder alone-
Why is not anyone here?, when I really need
some...

Engulfed in the waves of sadness and misery,
My heart cries and bleeds, heard by no one...

Because, all I was and will be, is
alone... alone... as long as life lasts.

i nvr thot i wud feel nostalgic wen leavin the US

wel, in my short visit to the us, two places i fel in love wer lake tahoe, california n newyork.
LAKE tahoe
it was a wondeful place with the thickest of trees i hav ever seen and water so brilliantly clear dat u cud c up to 67 feet deep too. amazing and ice cold, man! u cant stay very long, n the lake edged into small beaches with the softest of sand u cud imagine wid mountains all round it, snow capped thou its summer. it was a huge lake, n believe me wen i say it was huge, more like asea wid beaches n all. ya, n in a bay called emrald bay due to the lovely green colour of the water is a smaal island on which is a 16 foot by 16 foot lil buildin built by a lady who threw parties ther fr her frnds...wow! outta nowhere. thou its more water games in south lake tahoe, the beaches in north lake tahoe wer so soft... but the part i liked most wer the towering pines . its divinely beautiful to sit on the soft beach wid the cool breeze blowing against ur face, the pines rustling softly overhead as u look on the clear blue lake wid mountians far away markin its boundaries wid traces of winter snow faintly left behind.

n New york the other i fell in love wid. wat i liked first wer ppl n cars nt waiting for the traffic lights n d extremely dirty streets which reminded me of india cos i am boringly amazed by the clean streets of virginia wer i stayed. new york was altoether a different world wid huge skyscrapers as far as d eye cud c n crowded streets n busy ppl is a sight in itself.entering newyork thru a shuttle frm new jersey, v pass thru a loooong tunnel, i think the same one in the movie-padamati sandyaragam, lovely movie, aint it? neway, v tuk a double decker open toped bus ride thru downtown wid air ot so cool against ur face but the huge buildings stand guard against the sun. my neck ached as i was craning to c the tops o the buildings but wat i liked abt hem wer the tiny fire escape stairs , all in diff colours n designs. the 1 hr n odd wait to go to the 86th floor observatory on empire state bldg was worth it. u r literally on top wid bldgs all round u n a sight i liked wer the tiny yellow cabs all cluttered on the streets. then the 2-hr night tour was amzing, the bldgs transform into bright lights in various patterns against a dark sky n mark my words, not a single star cos its too polluted to see them.i enjoyed d ride over the brooklyn bridge and the view from beside it, like the bridge beside u, the river in front n below it n the otherside all colourfuly bright n u cud c the statue of liberty if u crank ur neck. but the empire state bldg towers over the rest n is lighted in white red and blue from top. wow! u knw its sposed to be pink on valentines day. i wud love getting married near its very top wid all pink lights round me n a city full of lights to behold.

thoughts abt the us....
wel, its an amazingly matriculate country wen u cum 2 the neat houses i hav seen in virginia's sub-urbs. simple ways to do everything n u get the freedom u dont enjoy in india rite from the clothes u wear to the way u live widout ppl pokin in. but it also means u live nearly alone , i mean, the care n affection n love of family n neighbours. me being sumone who need cumpany n from my loved ones, i wonder if i can live in the US of A. my grandmom scoldin me n huggin me, my dad to go out wid, my mom to quarell wid.... :-) but felt a lil nostalgic wen my 5 weeks ther wer up, not as much on leavin america n as leaving my aunts n uncles n cousins whom i hav grown so close to in these 5 weeks. it pains me slighty dat v wont b seein each other so soon thou thnx to the net, v ll b in touch but its nt the same as being wid them, aint?

i close my eyes n see america one last time, san francisco's golden gate bridge far away wid the chilly wind of the pacific blowing me away, i take a deep breath of the fresh air over lake tahoe wer i stand wid the lake in front, its water lapping gently at my bare feet n hear the air rustling thru the pines n then i feel a rush of adrelaine on the biggest roller coaster ride i hav been to, kraken ( remember the legendary sea monster in pirates-2) in seaworld, orlando, florida wid bugs flying n slight rain drizzling over me n then the view from brooklyn bridge of the city called the apple in brilliant light all round me as it gives a picture postcard still n then las vegas, the bellajio's fountain show, wow! water splashing lightly relieving one of the summer n desert heat of nevada n the magnificient sculptures i was awed of in caesar's palace n then the huge dinosaur ( its bones all set rite n standing) bidding me goodbye from the natural histoary museum, wahington dc n finally my ppl waving, huggin n kissing n tears strain my eyes to bid them goodbye. alas! the trips cum to an end n america stands behind me as i bid it adieu, adios n i truly loved it, or Mcdonald's way- I'm loving it :-D