Friday, August 24, 2007

Few seconds frm - DeatH... 4hrs ago



i m lucky to b writing this, i mean am lucky to b still alive n am lucky to b in one piece wid jus a scratch or two... if u happened to pass by my mutiliated car lying in a ditch beside the road, u wud think the ppl in it must have been dead.. v wer racin frm lingampally to vikarabad to catch a train in an hour to go to mumbai n man, it was raining like mad.. n v wer nvr less than 110kmph... n 10 km n 10 mins frm d station, ther was this narrow bridge, n a bus cumin towards us.. i am nt sure wen my driveer saw dat d road was narrow n only one vehicle cud pass...two sharp cuts n a break..n v wer skiddin on d slippery road, flew off the road into the bushes, kept skiddin fr 15 metres n then it turned around...man, v wer lucky to have seat belts on... n suddenly outta no where, ppl poured in, n wer pushing the car arnd, n v got out shaky n checkin fr bruises... then a luk at d car n my god, i cudnt stop thankin god to b alive... but d split second in which v skid cos v wer at 120kmph as i said... in dat second, i can remeber things as if in a slow motion.. v wer goin thru the shrubs n i thot to myself, v r havin an accident n it luks like jus a roller coaster ride n n o pain... n i told myself to sit back n brace myself n wid one hand was holdin my sis back too cos i remembered her seat belt was loose...
wel, its ovr now.. n i vowed to myself to stop n help wenevr i see an accident cos i was thankfull to thos ppl who rushed to us... n believe me.. NUTHIN in life is worth the risk of ur life... n speed..i enjoyed the ride cos v wer literally flyin, but man, had v gone slower... "YA, n the seat belts n the bushes around saved us..
wen v frm startin frm lingampally,dad wasnt cumin wid us, n i was abt to get into the front passenger seat n then dad said drop me thr ekaod, n then again he dint cum, so apuduki, i was seated in the back(near the left door n sis n mom beside me... ya n the car turned ovr on my side...).. n i shudder to think dat in dat second i mit hav been in the front seat...cos u c the front passenger part of the car caved in so badly cos it hit some huge stone.. n i wudnt hav been here typin this even if i did survive the head injury.... ;) neways... v safe n i happy.. v had been postponing a tripp to shirdi, n now i dont understand how v planned to go to mumbai without goin ther... so , as soon as v can, v ll go visit shirdi... ya n wen u c omens, heed them... produna varalakshmi vratam ki devata ni sadutunapudu, venakalaki jaripinapudu, kinda padipoyindi n my sis said sth s bad s gonna happen.. n v wer to take the train frm lingampalli.. but wen v went ther, it turned out it dint stop ther anymore... adi.. ya n this forebodin was in my mind ki.. i usually hav a sai dollar in my neck which i love so much n jus this time, gav it to the jeweller to put it into a new chain... n it kept naggin in my mind dat i dint wanna go anywhere widout...call me superstistiously silly.... but lol, am happpy i m alive n am writin this jus to remind u guys......................> dat some things in life r jus not worth riskin ur life for... n wen u c an accident, even if u dont go n help, give a call to an ambulance plz.. if u save somebody, u (or ur dear ones) might b saved someday too...
thnx
sahitya

Monday, August 6, 2007

gone wid d wiind


its sposed to b a classic n dats y i lay my hands on it, pleased by d 1000 n odd pages cos dat wud mean passin my time now dat ders plenty. its a brilliant read, set in d american civil war.. n me dint like the deep details abt the war at sum places... but otherwise..its a buk of love n loss n courage... a nice one to read. u ll fal in love wid d ruthless scarlett...truly ruthless n brave n smart n insensitively selfish thing..n the rascal rhett buttler... who tries turnin over such a change jus fr his lil lovely daughter... the kind melanie...oh i cudnt help but cry wen she was dyin... the buk is written on a civilisation dat rebuilds itself after war.. n as scarlett is d main part... everything in her life wer slowly gone wid d wind! n hw she struggled to hold wat remained, pushing off d past n her present worries wid common sense n attendin to the matter at hand cos as she always said-'tomorrow is another day!' n oh i cud almost feel d war happening to me, i was jus hopin d war wud end n things get normal, but it ends n dats jus d beginning...thers so much loss, so much pain n struggle...after it... boy! i was literally in d story... beginnin wid d pleasent balls, the dancin...the laughter... it was as if i was surrounded by it. n den whoa! d war.... mast. n i jus saw d movie tooday... i always felt no movie cud do justice to a buk, the emotions, the fragnance n d delicateness a buk carries n slowly unfolds.. a movie cudnt do it... n wen i recently saw namesake, dat cemented my thot..but this movie!- gone wid d wind..n i was swept off my feet..probably d longest movie i had seen til now..nearly 3hr 48mins... its taken so beautifully... wow! n vivien leigh did absolute justice to her role as if she was born scarlett o' hara... her quick temper, her pride, her convincing lies, her demure luks n attractive smiles, her ruthless nature never to let go n always keep fightin.. a heart-touching tale of a struggle wid courage n love n die-hard spirit.

Friday, August 3, 2007

my love- its melody







wen i say its melody i was talkin abt this poem.. but i ges.. love is a melody too.. love... the word brings such positive energy, doesnt it? it reminds me of a wave of emotions.. happy.. pleasent. i say one must be in love jus fr d sake of it... its upliftin n fills d heart wid delight... it.. wel.. each to their own experience ;)

my love

i sit here in calm solitude
the gentle wind caressing my face
the soft raindrops hug me so
n i smile as i feel ur gaze

far you are, yet so near
i can feel ur very breath
the touch of ur lips on mine
n the warmth of ur embrace

the very thought of you
is enuf to make my day
oh! im so glad v met
i love u, i love ur every way

the way the top of ur nose crinkles
everytime u smile
the love i c in ur eyes
wen u luk deep into mine

the way u soothen my hair
wen its all askew
ur comforting hand which
never fails to find mine.

the way u patiently listen
to my tuneless songs,
n put up wid my
endless babbles n flaws.

u make me laugh crazy
wen im all down n blue,
that i dunno wat i wud've done
jus without u.

i know u in n out,
ur every luk,smile n touch.
i feel cumplete wid u
v r one 2gether, i'm urs n u mine.

lonely...


wel.. dunno y am feelin all paranoid... i jus feel i cant understand myself at times- my thoughts or my moods..or anything.. at times thou.. i think i understand others pretty wel, but wen it cums to me at times... i jus dont know.. ya, i know am makin no sense.. neways..heres a poem i adore ..dat i wrote fcorz ;) no i dint rite it now.. jus felt like readin it.. it kinda comforts me...


Alone

Here, alone, I stand by the sea,
Thinking, who's really there for me.

In moments of triumph,I'm surrounded by many,
But, in sadness, I just can't find any.

Sucess and riches, is this what all the
world wants?
Gold and money, how long do they last?

Alone we come into this world, alone we
depart.
Does it mean we should be alone, as long as
life lasts?

Lonely here I am, I wonder alone-
Why is not anyone here?, when I really need
some...

Engulfed in the waves of sadness and misery,
My heart cries and bleeds, heard by no one...

Because, all I was and will be, is
alone... alone... as long as life lasts.